Yes, this is {A} a sympathetic movie and {B} as confused as the feelings of the teens themselves. I got here because of Hildebrand - who has the greatest character name in the history of all film (in Deadpool), - and the title, which just kind of SCREAMS "coming-of-age lesbian story". That title is such a dead giveaway, it's almost embarrassing.So, if the intent of this movie was to try to convey the confusion that teens feel when dealing with their sexuality or when they're trying to come out of the closet ... this movie really succeeds and is a ten, because it's really confusing.Now, I'm not one for linear storytelling with flat characters and the forces of Good vs Evil, but this movie attempt at NOT being that.... well, it clearly fails. Apparently, telling a non-linear story, with characters that aren't either purely sympathetic or clearly nasty.... is very hard. To be honest, I don't know how to do that either, and I do salute the attempt itself. However, they're just not pulling it off. At the end of any movie or story, the kind of wonder, or open endings that the viewer is left with should be, lets say ... less confusing?For example: Why did Anne have sex with Cliff (she clearly cooperates with him) and the guy from the bar, if she didn't want to? I can see how she wants to be compliant, or that she's taught/brainwashed into just going along with the expectations from the men or boys around her, but the movie should not have left that one hanging, it should've been more explicit about her motives.Apparently, Cliff knew that Anne was lesbian, but he still had sex with her anyway? What kind of friend/BFF is that? And, no, Anne shouldn't spoon with Cliff, that really DOES count as 'leading him on' unless the girl really SAYS that is as far as it goes. Again, sure, she might be confused about what she wants, but her doubt/struggle isn't really made clear.Anyways, this is a clear case of "great effort but poor scripting". Very MESSY scripting. 5/10 The Melancholic Alcoholic.

Graphic straight sex scene for absolutely no reason. Didn't even bother showing the two girls have sex, we're just supposed to assume they did? Gay girl don't hold hands, stroke each other's face and keep all their clothes on during sex. Really boring overall. Don't know why Cliff pining over a gay girl was such a huge part of the movie. Most people will come to this movie to see a lesbian coming of age story, not Cliff's life story. We don't care.

Kerem Sanga's First Girl I Loved is a coming of age story following confused high-schoolers trying to figure themselves out in respect to who their friends are, sexual preference and how to accept who they are in the face of so much uncertainty and the constant world of judgement that is high school.Anne, our protagonist, Cliff, the best-friend, and Sasha, the love interest, are like most high- schoolers in that they are confused about almost everything. We follow their stories through a mixture of flashbacks and flash forwards in an almost cyclic view as we see Anne coming to terms with her sexuality.For those who attended school in any capacity, you will recall the confusion, the desire to fit in and the fear of judgment from peers whilst simultaneously attempting to understand ones likes and dislikes and to keep it all together with no less than a smile. Both Anne and Sasha comment on the pressure of how they are perceived by their peers with the under confidence of some of the characters and the ability to be unapologetically themselves becoming slightly frustrating for someone who wishes they too stood up for themselves when they were younger.First Girl I Loved isn't all about teen angst and the confusing ride of the ups and downs of friendships. We are given an insight into the world of Softball with subtitles coming up for the hand signals given between a coach and his players and the comic relief in the text messages between the two girls. In a technologically advanced world the mobile phone has really been a big hit providing Kerem Sanga with another medium for the characters to express emotions, one which the younger members of the audience will relate to quite readily.This heart-rendering and complex film comes away with the universal message that nothing can be that bad, even in the face of everything falling apart, with a little bit of self-acceptance life can be a whole lot easier.

Today I woke up at 6:30am and made my way to the Library Theatre in Park City in near-zero degree weather to see a film I had been eager to see since arriving at Sundance Film Festival. The film, First Girl I Loved, was showing at 9:00am but due to a miscalculation in the bus schedule I ended up arriving at 7:30am and being the first person in line for the screening. This turned out to be fortunate for me because I got awesome seats to the best film I have seen in quite a while and it was preceded by the short Catching Up which set the tone for the film to come.First Girl I Loved, written and directed by Karem Senga, tells the story of a Anne, a high school girl, who finds herself attracted to Sasha who is on the school's softball team. Anne uses her connections in the year book to get close to Sasha and the two become extremely close, taking their relationship beyond friendship. This upsets one of Anne's friends Clifton, who is in love with Anne and unable to cope with the fact that she is not sexually attracted to him. As Sasha and Anne's relationship progresses it becomes more complicated as Sasha pulls away fearing being stigmatized by her family and teammates for being a lesbian.I was blown away by how well the film was written and produced, especially for a writer/director who was only making his third film. The cinematography was excellent and served as an important vehicle for portraying the emotions and ideas of characters. At the same time the editing was crucial for displaying the passage of time, which was done through parallel cutting between takes of cause and effect. For the first full length film I screened at Sundance, it completely surpassed my expectations. I would give this film a 10/10, but on top of that I would suggest that everybody take the time to watch this film because it has a positive message and is a perfect mix of comedy, drama, and is one of the most accurate depictions of high school relationships I have seen.